To share or not to share…..

Hey God. Ummm, actually no, I’m not ok today. You want to me to share.

Geez, that was the key word over the weekend, “share”. Why did you create us to be such complex things? What do I mean? Have you gone and done The Landmark Forum? Man, I called my dad and shared the story that I was running in my head about thinking he thought I was a failure and he wasn’t proud of me. At the end of the chat, I believed he understood what I was saying and confirmed he had never thought that and he was proud of me. Great, hang up go back to seminar.

BUT NOOOOO…. IT WASN’T AS BLACK AND WHITE AS THAT…. of course not, this is me we’re talking about. Unaware to me, he created his new story the following day and thought that I was going to commit suicide and was ready to call the police. In hindsight, I should have called back just to touch base again, it was an emotional call and seeing he was from the older generation, I guess he couldn’t understand why I was sharing this out of the blue, even though to me it had been festering in my mind, like dark matter growing.

Couldn’t you have provided us each with a manual? Dummies guide to being a human being. Or our own individual dummies guide and when you interact with other complex human being, you can rip out a page with a short version, hand it to them and say, “Hi, before we create our own stories to attach it to a simple situation which then becomes this humongous, unnecessary soap drama, here is my personal instructional manual of my mechanical being.” Of course in this day and age there would be an app for it.

Yes, I think I need an extra, extra large coffee with a side of a baseball bat should I choose to use it on you.

I know we don’t want to live ground-hog days but did you need to mess with our minds in order for us to have excitement? Why are you confused? Ok, ok, let me shed some light. We are so messed up, complicated and confused, we can’t tell the difference between up and down, fear is now such a driving force, we look for answers from all the motivational speakers, the psychiatrist, the psychologist, the dog, the cat, feathers, signs, aliens, all types of pills. (I think chocolate is the best but not too good for my hips).

Then we go and sit in mediation and ask you, the universe, anyone who is listening to our mind to show us the way whilst we aim to gain enlightenment or even just the simple thing of am I heading in the right direction?. Aren’t you already exhausted just listening to this? But let’s remember, The Landmark Forum, simply explains ” a situation is just a situation, we just add the story to it”. Even Jay Shetty comes to the party, it may be a bit confusing at first but it makes sense, “I’m not what I think I am, I’m not what you think I am, I am what I think you think I am”. How did we get to this point?

Didn’t you have a TV up there to watch the day time soap operas from the other planets? I have a headache now, changing my perspective, yet again, to situations are just situations and not to add my own story to it and not create my own personal soap opera.

WTF were you thinking?